One I Wrote For Work Then Thought Better About

  • You ever think about names?
  • Specifically, of people?
  • Like you hear a name of someone who’s doing something exceptional, and think, “well, yeah, with a name like that …”
  • Like, I dunno, Laird Hamilton.
  • Or (and I told you I’d been on a Nine Inch Nails kick) Trent Reznor.
  • Sounds made-up.
  • Pauses to go see if, in fact, he made it up.
  • Nope, that’s his real name.
  • What else would that dude have been but a superstar musician.
  • Names have power.
  • Thanks, Mom.
  • Though technically, she did name me after a popular rock singer.
  • I just don’t think my name has bestselling writer juice.
  • I had more names on that list until I actually sat down to write this.
  • Poof.
  • Middle age sucks.
  • So many dementia flags flying.
  • That’ll be fun, too.
  • Bring it.
  • Baring my teeth at the world today.
  • I can’t blame the aggressive music.
  • I was thinking about what you show at work.
  • How much of your authentic self is there every day.
  • The outline, sure.
  • The shape of the thing.
  • But if you had a Self Dial™, what would your knob be turned to?
  • (If you say 11, you’re foolin’ yourself.)
  • I’d say, three, maybe four some days.
  • And I think of myself as mostly authentic.
  • But there’s just so much that comes up on the mental prompter we ignore.
  • Yeah, no, that’s probably not a good idea.
  • Probably Not a Good Idea would be a fantastic name for a memoir.
  • Not mine.
  • I’m risk averse.
  • Hands and feet inside the roller coaster at all times.
  • And there’s a good reason for that, but again, three, maybe four, on the dial.
  • If you’re only seeing the low-hanging fruit on almost everyone you encounter on the daily, how much truth are you witnessing?
  • try.
  • Nothing I’ve ever put in here is the least bit untrue.
  • Filtered, yes.
  • Untrue, no.
  • I find the differences between public and work life fascinating.
  • We all wear masks, is someone’s metaphor I’m borrowing.
  • But yeah, names.
  • Names are hard.
  • I have changed the names of all the characters in my book at least twice, and some of them three or four.
  • Names in writing are like clothes you put on your imaginary mannequin.
  • They shape the thing, give it voice and manner.
  • I’m writing this list the night before.
  • Which is probably why it is what it is so far.
  • Won’t have time to write it today (tomorrow).
  • Okay, there is no fucking way I’ll post this list.
  • I’ll write a new one tomorrow.

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