- This morning at our pre-school ritual, the Teenager said (paraphrasing), “I wonder what Yelena did with her dog. And the guinea pig.”
- “The dog probably ate the guinea pig already.”
- “What?!”
- “No it didn’t. It’s a golden retriever.”
- “No it wasn’t.”
- “Yes it was.”
- Teenager looks it up. No, it wasn’t.
- Dammit.
- “Fine. You were right.”
- She usually is; because if she doesn’t know, she won’t speak up.
- I had this personality trait when I was younger.
- I would not bet or argue if I did not already know the answer/outcome.
- I am risk averse.
- And I hate losing.
- She’s the same way.
- I feel I’ve failed her in this way.
- Because you have to be able to fail in this life.
- It’s like that failure speech Chris Pine gives in the D&D movie.
- (Such a good flick, btw. Sorry, “fun” flick.)
- Maybe that failure philosophy is a conjuration from failures, but rarely does anything work the first time, or the way you think it will.
- You need weird outcomes to stretch your mind.
- You know this.
- I’m rambling.
- I’m trying to write today, but struggling because I’m talking D&D with my buddies.
- All of them, really.
- I feel like I opened the flood gates.
- And I’m just getting to orchestrate fun for people and work on my storytelling and improv.
- “I’ve got something to say! It’s better to burn out than fade away!”
- (If you know, you know.)
- They’re remaking that with Henry Cavill and the guys behind John Wick.
- I cannot wait.
- I’m going to watch the old crappy version this week while convalescing.
- It was one of those movies we’d watch as teenagers over and over and over again.
- Highlander
- Conan the Barbarian
- The Terminator
- Aliens
- Heartbreak Ridge
- I had three of those on one VHS tape.
- (No, I do not remember which.)
- Probably Star Wars, Empire and Raiders were wrapped in there, too.
- Lethal Weapon
- This is what we did when we were not skating, playing D&D, or doing something on the NES.
- We’d have epic Pro Wrestling tournaments.
- I beat our unbeatable friend and true story, he hit the power button right when the ref was saying, “Three!”
- I always say this in the work list when this stuff comes up, but those kids in Stranger Things?
- Us.
- More or less.
- Do you know how I got started in D&D?
- I had this older cousin Jeff.
- One year for Xmas, he gave me the D&D red box, which was the basic rules.
- And then we played.
- Melted my brain.
- And I’m not sure how it got brought up to my friend group, but once it did, it was part of our lives into college.
- Geeks.
- I took time off from being a geek in college.
- Because girls.
- Had a whole conversation with the Wife yesterday about how much awareness she had of my geekery.
- She says she knew the whole time.
- Geekness has gravity and I’ve been pulled back in.
- Coinciding with this GenX/50-something “fuck you I won’t do what you tell me.” mentality that keeps growing.
- That’s my theme song, btw.
- My core value.
- My mission statement.
- My ethos.
- Dude.
- I hate being told what to do.
- Hate it.
- Society is what it is.
- Much dissonance.
- I’m not sure I even want to work on it.
- I do.
- I persevere.
- You do what you gotta do, right?
- What I’m learning RIGHT NOW is how to get more of what I want from this life.
- I let it win for too long.
- No longer.
- You are not guaranteed any time here.
- Any time you spend neck deep in someone’s ends other than your own is a waste of your most valuable resource.
- Fuck your commute mandate, Gov. Stitt.
- Stop living quiet lives of indentured servitude.
- This is what stream of consciousness gets you.
- This is the stuff I’m passionate about.
- My current state of happiness makes me want to push these things.
- To find paths.
- To lift myself and all my people up.
- Freedom must be seized.
- Hope you’re having a pocket full of sunshine today.
- Love you guys.
Some of Those Who Work Forces
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