Tag: poem

  • Get ‘Em Up in the Back Room

    Get ‘Em Up in the Back Room

    • Whose woods these are …
    • Kidding.
    • I mean, I’m not kidding.
    • Probably nothing better than starting a hot summer day with a little Frost.
    • But no, I’m not cut-and-pasting that in here.
    • I wonder how far I could get from memory …
    • I remember taking a lit class in college.
    • Lit 1? Lit 2?
    • We had to memorize a poem, then stand in front of the class and recite.
    • That’s the one I chose.
    • Because I’d already had to memorize it once, back in high school.
    • Obviously.
    • I don’t remember what I wore that day, though I can guess.
    • Baggy jeans, probably a Polo t-shirt of green or blue, covered by a giant plaid button-up that wore more like a jacket than a shirt.
    • Brown Docs on my feet.
    • I remember studying the poem the night before.
    • And then I didn’t have to go the first day, so it got punted to the next class.
    • Sitting here, I can remember the steps in the Classroom building, because my Lit class wasn’t in Morrill with the rest of the English classes.
    • This was before I committed to writing.
    • Before taking hours of creative writing and poetry classes and switching my major to Journalism.
    • Clouds obscured the sky that day, shrouding everything in muted gray.
    • Which made it darker in the classroom in the Classroom.
    • I sat there staring at the poem on my desk, copied by my own hand into a notebook, repeating the words in my mind, probably paying no attention to anyone else’s rote recitation.
    • Then it was my turn.
    • I walked to the front, turned, and … did the whole thing in one take.
    • Monotone.
    • I stared at the back wall of the room, making no eye contact.
    • Tried not to clench my hands into fists.
    • To go slow enough so as to not skip words or lines.
    • And then it was done.
    • They actually clapped.
    • Caught me off guard.
    • I still love that poem.
    • The atmosphere mixed with the profundity.
    • Good stuff.
    • I’m never ever going to be that good at words.
    • Not bad, but never great.
    • I think it’s important to keep that perspective.
    • Helps remind you to stay within yourself, but also to strive.
    • At some point, you’ll reach that spot mentally.
    • Where you become okay with being as good as you are, with what you do, and that you don’t have to be Robert Frost or Ernest Hemingway.
    • I did try to type it from memory.
    • Botched the last two lines of the second stanza, but I got the rest.
    • I’ll take it.
    • I could go for watching the woods fill up with snow about now.
    • Other than sitting by the ocean seeing waves crash, there’s nothing more calming than watching snow at night.
    • If I won the lottery, I might spend my time volleying between those two things.
    • You can get there with wind in autumn trees, too.
    • Or through the tall grass.
    • You sure af don’t get it from city traffic, though maybe if you were a born and raised city kid, I can envision you sitting on a concrete step, eyes closed, letting the traffic ambiance entrance you.
    • There’s peace to be had in sounds is what I’m saying for the kids in the back row.
    • “Get ‘em up in the back room …”
    • (Name that song!)
    • You know what is not a peaceful sound?
    • The goddamn microwave.
    • Our microwave sits above the oven, high enough you have to reach for it.
    • I’m not sure how Steph manages sometimes.
    • I heated up Mom’s coffee in it this morning.
    • Popped the door open, sat the mug inside, closed it up.
    • Then … I set it for 27 seconds.
    • I almost never do even numbers with the microwave.
    • Never multiples of five.
    • Usually threes and sevens.
    • I’m sure we could compare this to those of you who smash the :30 second button two or three times, then take out whatever it is when you’re good and goddamned ready.
    • The microwave isn’t the boss of us.
    • You can’t let the little battles you control out of your hands.
    • It is important to keep winnable victories.
    • Tons of books shout the importance of habits to our outcomes.
    • Talking to Mom over coffee this morning, tai chi came up.
    • Been thinking about starting that.
    • Have to overcome the social anxiety.
    • The noob anxiety.
    • But.
    • The goblin dog wakes us early every day.
    • Used to outrage me, put me in a terrible mental place before the day even starts.
    • Still find it annoying, but I’m trying to … get up and stay up when she wakes me up, even on occasion.
    • Because that’s free time, right?
    • And I dislike being mad at the dog.
    • I have transitioned from being a night owl to getting in bed at pretty much the same time every evening.
    • Reading to calm my brain for a bit.
    • The routine established, maintained.
    • While talking, I wondered if the secret to health …
    • Nevermind.
    • It’s not a wonder.
    • Consistency is key in everything.
    • Positive habits rather than negative.
    • I sat there and imagined getting up early every day.
    • Doing tai chi.
    • Drinking my coffee.
    • Then doing what has to be done.
    • Could only help to have that habit.
    • Could only improve my longevity.
    • Or barring that, improve the quality of my Time.
    • My. Time.
    • Mine.
    • Like these lists.
    • The cat, lying next to me in a sunbeam, holds my foot with her paw.

    Whose woods these are I think I know.
    His house is in the village, though;
    He will not see me stopping here
    To watch his woods fill up with snow.

    My little horse must think it queer
    To stop without a farmhouse near
    Between the woods and frozen lake
    The darkest evening of the year.

    He gives his harness bells a shake
    To ask if there is some mistake.
    The only other sound’s the sweep
    Of easy wind and downy flake.

    The woods are lovely dark and deep,
    But I have promises to keep,
    And miles to go before I sleep,
    And miles to go before I sleep.

    Robert Frost, “Stopping by Woods on a Snowy Evening.”

    *Jerm, thanks for the hat.